I’m sitting here trying to think of something to write.  I don’t know why I haven’t been writing.  I miss it, but I am so unmotivated to get on here and write lately.  There is so much going on in my life and work that I just don’t take the time.  I can’t blog at work.  I can’t chat on MSN or listen to Launchcast.  I miss these things.  I miss the people I used to chat with.  I miss the music I used to listen to.  Last weekend I found, in a used CD store, the album Emotional Technology by BT.  Hadn’t listened to it since I stopped listening to Launchcast and it was great to hear it again.   The song Somnambulist is awesome!  So my new mission is to get lots of new (old) music that I have missed for the past 5 months.   I just read over what I wrote there about not being able to blog & chat at work.  I’m not trying to dis my new job.  I actually really like it.  I’m coordinating lots of charity fundraising and volunteer events within a large organization, which is really cool.  I have a large network of people who are really appreciative of what I am doing.  Even though I have an ideological aversion to corporations and all that they stand for, I have discovered that there are things I really like about working for them.  Perks are nice.  Also working with a lot of people on really large projects is a big plus for me.  Perhaps I have some strange sense that by working on Corporate Social Responsibility I can actually make a difference.  Perhaps I am just fooling myself there.  At least it is good to like my job for now.   I think perhaps that blogging was filling a void I felt when I left working for a large corporation.  The last place I worked had only 11 employees, and when you have such a small group, it is hard to ignore the person with the freaky personality - you know the one; there's one in every workplace - the one who might have a temper tantrum or go off on you at any moment.  At least in a large organization there is a buffer against that shit because there are so many other people you can interact with.  I am a people person and I like having a large network of people to interact with.  When I went to work at that last little company I think I really missed having that network, so blogging filled the void.  Now that I am working for a large corp again, I have that network back again in my daily life, so perhaps that is one of the reasons I am not turning to blogging as much.  Of course, not being able to blog at work puts a major damper on it as well.  Let’s be honest…I used to spend a couple of hours a day blogging while at work.  Simply can’t do that now.  And so very often I am too exhausted after the kids are asleep to want to get on the computer in the evening, which really sucks because I have lost a creative outlet and clearly my writing is suffering for it.  So, I guess the only thing to do is stop complaining about not having a creative outlet and actually use this wonderful creative outlet that is here for me.  K.  That’s what I’ll do.    (Please excuse this rediculously self-ingulgent meandering ramble.  I'll write about something real next time, I swear!)

I laughed at this quote:

"Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands--and then just eat one of the pieces." ~Judith Viorst

I laughed especially becuase right now I am on day 6 of a cleansing program-no sugar, dairy, red meat, alcohol, or chemicals. I am doing really well with it!  But that is fodder for another blog.  Gotta get up early tomorrow and go for a run.  G'night. :)